Wednesday, April 23, 2014

A baby in the house.

I am so behind on posting, I still have spring break, our last snow storm and Easter and the amount of photos is just too daunting so today I will post on having a baby in the house again.  Something I can easily write about and love to talk about.  She is wonderful, she is sweet, yes she is busy but we are so in love.  It is unbelievable to me that she is almost 4 months old.  She slept from 9 to 5 last night, what do you think of that?  I think I like it.  Lets talk about her little relationship with everyone in the family. First off, her favorite man in her life, her Daddy.  She always has a big smile for him and he always knows when he gets home from a long day that he needs to hold her in his arms.  Her biggest sister Sydney, enjoys being her other Mother, she holds her like she is her own daughter and loves to help her every chance she can.  Her and Tess frequently have arguments on "who gets to take her."  Miss Tess  probably is the most smitten by her and it makes me so proud.  Yesterday her and I were dressing Cece and she said to me, "It is so fun to have a baby."  This almost made me cry.  Gabby takes her turn when  her big sisters are gone and frequently tells me, "She smiled at me, she really likes me."  Lastly, me.  I can't kiss her enough.  With 10 blessed years of babies I have such a strong sense of the fleeting nature of "babyhood."  She leaves me feeling such a sense of well being and love.  Our household has changed dramatically since Cece came to live with us.  Probably for the better.  Our house now looks "lived in."  There is a burp cloth in most every room, a toy to trip on in many rooms, dishes and laundry always ready to be done but instead of focusing on this, we are all focusing on holding a baby.  Really what we are here for.  We won't be able to hold her forever, but we wish we could.  Baby #4 is better than we anticipated.  I am so thankful.

Love, Gina

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

We Miss You Auntie Joyce

I can't believe it has been 6 years since I have hugged my dear Auntie Joyce.  She was wonderful, she would have loved Gabby and Cece if she would have met them.  We miss her so much.  I don't know if I ever told you the story of why I always buy french silk pie on the anniversary of her death and her birthday so tonight I will explain.  When she came to visit our family on the farm when we were kids she always treated us to "Poppin' Fresh" pies from "the Cities."  Poppin' Fresh became Bakers Square and she continued to bring pies to the farm for our special treat.  French silk for the kids and some kind of Strawberry for my Dad.  She was so thoughtful.  This is why we celebrate her twice a year with french silk pie.  This year was no different, I surprised the girls with pie and we enjoyed our dessert together in her memory.  We love you Auntie Joyce.

Have a good night.

Friday, April 04, 2014

We have big news here.  For the first time ever, Cece slept in her co-sleeper all night!!!!  Remember we don't judge we love when I say, when Cece fusses during the night we just scoop her up and bring her to bed with us, sometimes we feed her, sometimes she just goes back to sleep without feeding her.  Last night she stayed in her own space all night!  Yes, I know she is 3.5 months old and she shouldn't be sleeping with us in the first place but all judgments cancel out when it is the 4th baby right?!?  I actually had to wake her to feed because I was uncomfortable and after she fed she went back to sleep.  She is still sleeping and so are my other 3 babies.  Life is good….it almost makes me not notice our huge snowstorm in April that is taking place as I write.  Have a great weekend.

Love, Gina

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

Working Mom Update:

Well, I did it.  I survived my first work weekend.  They managed quite well without me (isn't that annoying?)  What do you mean I am replaceable?!    I came home to 4 cute kids that were doing just fine.

Okay, that was the synopsis of my first 3 days of work and the description that people want to hear and feel comfortable with.  Now I will tell you the ugly truth and nothing but the truth.  I cried on the way to work, my sister called me on my way to work and then I cried some more.  I got to work and I saw my friend walk through the door and started crying when I saw her.  Then I went in the changing room with about 15 other women and cried some more.  One of the nurses said, "Good bonding, even on your 4th, I am impressed."  I did laugh.  Everyone was so nice to me, over the course of the weekend my sister and 2 friends bought me 3 mochas, Steve brought the girls and some chocolate in…clearly people know what cures my emotional pain (chocolate and coffee.)  It was great to see all of my friends at work, they asked about the girls, they humored me and looked at my picture book and it was fun seeing everyone but I am not going to lie, it was hard, very hard.  When my three twelve hour shifts were over I cried at home again, thinking about how I was going to do it again.  But I will do it again and hopefully with less tears.  I will say, I all but jumped for joy when Cece would wake up during the night, I was just so excited to attend to her.  And another bright side, what do you get when you have a husband that is worried his wife won't go back to work?  A husband that does all of the laundry over the weekend AND goes grocery shopping.  That was nice.

The girls have been awesome, they are always excited to see me when I get home, that is nice.  I was talking to Tess about not wanting to leave to go to work and she said to me, "Then don't go Mom, be a stay at home mom.  You make our lunches and we will pay you."  Very cute.  One night I was whining and said, "I didn't even get to see the white of my baby's eyes because she was sleeping when I got home."  Tess replied, "Well just use your fingers and open her eyes, then you can see the white."  Pretty funny.  Everyone is doing just fine and I will get used to it again too, it is all a balancing act, a balancing act that I can master again, with one more sweet girl to love.  Oh how I love our girls, why does this have to be so hard?

Have a good day.
Love, Gina

P.S.I promise I didn't weep in my patient's room and was very professional and kind.  I also promise that every post will not be about me whining about working and missing the girls.  I just needed to get it out of my system.

Friday, March 28, 2014

3 months old

3 months flew by much too quickly.
love, gina

Thursday, March 27, 2014

I want another 12 weeks please.

Sad would be the understatement of the year to describe how I feel about my maternity leave being over tomorrow.  As I have seen 3 times before, just as the baby gets more fun, you start to get the hang of things and really "enjoy" life with your new little family member, it is time to return to work. Everyone knows that I love being a nurse and I have always felt it was my "calling" but guess what, being a Mom also is my calling and the two callings compete for each others time and I don't like the stress of time competition!!!  How can I leave this sweet little baby?
How can I leave her sweet sisters?
Despite the obvious struggles of a non-weight gaining sweet new baby coming to live with us, I truly enjoyed immersing myself in motherhood with few other distractions.  Yes, I will be fine, yes I have done it before and I will survive but I will openly admit I have shed tears thinking about leaving these little girls.   They have a great babysitter who treats them like her own grandchildren and a Daddy that would walk through fire for them but I just really enjoyed my time with them and cannot believe it slipped by so quickly.  I know there are other working Moms out there that don't want to hear me complain but I can't help it.  I prayed a long time for baby #4 and I hate the thought of leaving her and her sisters.

I learned a lot after baby #4, a lot that I have to offer with my patients and in general.  I will have to bite my tongue and wait for my patient to ask about my family because I know their labor day is about them....not my family that I will desperately want to talk about after 3 months of hanging out with them.

All i ever really needed to know i learned on my 4th maternity leave:

  • you are always learning, never a pro...even the 4th can throw you for a loop and decide to be in charge.
  • nursing tanks and pajama pants were sent from heaven.
  • feeling a sweet baby rest on your chest, under your chin is a wonderful feeling.
  • a mother's hygiene is one of the first things to suffer when time is limited.  (Steve asked me when I got out of the shower this morning if I even got wet because I just have to rush so much sometimes.)
  • people's comments about having 4 girls bother me so much less now because I feel like I know a little is wonderful and we are blessed.
  • even if you don't plan a big space in your children, watching the older children in love with the baby is priceless.
  • my husband is a saint for putting up with my mood swings, tears about our scrawny baby, breastfeeding and going back to work. 
  • caffeine really is a good friend of mine.
  • sometimes your child wants to be queen of the pediatrician's office.  (We have taken her to the office 13 times since she was born!!  A majority of visits for weight checks.)
  • children can be so unaware of the reality that they live in.  The other day Tess said to me in all seriousness, "I hope you have twins someday."  2 things she must not be aware of: 1.We have 4 kids already.  2. I turn 40 in September.
  • 6 people create a lot of laundry
  • It really does take a village and our village is wonderful, thank you.
  • I not only love our girls, I really like them.  The 6 of us really have a fun time together.  
  • 1st, 2nd, 3rd or 4th child, you cry in the first few weeks because your husband gets to leave the mayhem to go to work and in the last few weeks you cry because you don't want to leave the mayhem.  
  • I don't need to go back to work for social interaction...despite what many people like to ask me.  (People, I do have friends, family, 3 coffee shops within walking distance, 4 kids and a husband....I am not lacking in social interaction.)
  • Things don't necessarily get easier, they change and you acclimate to the new norm.  (Lets not discredit ourselves, we are amazing;)
  • #4 really was a great idea.  Oh how we all love her.  
As you can see, I have learned a lot and am still learning.  Tomorrow is a big day, prayers are very welcomed.  My babies will be fine, but it is hard for me to believe I will.  (My mini-me aka. Syd, had a good cry with me tonight which I thought was very sweet and actually kind of therapeutic.)

Have a good night.
Love, Gina

P.S. See slideshow below with some of my favorite photos from the last 3 months, playing the song that I love to dance with the girls to.  

Cece joins our family. at

I put together some of my favorite photos from Cece's 1st 3 months.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Mocha love.

Anyone who knows me, knows I love a mocha.  I love them even more since I had baby #4.  Several people gave me coffee gift cards as a gift after Miss Cece arrived.  What a great gift!  I need caffeine more than ever!  I used to be the "judgey-mc-judge a lot" about people who bought coffee when they were out when they could save a lot of money and make coffee at home.  Not anymore.  Yes, I make coffee at home but I have to tell you, there is just something about someone making a delicious coffee for you.  (Kind of like a salad is always better when someone else makes it for you.)  It is my pick me up, it is the buzz I need.  Not every day of the week, so I do appreciate it when I get it.  I have really cut back lately but ironically people have been helping me satisfy my vice.  Yesterday I was laying in bed with Cece latched on but essentially sleeping thinking, "I better get my butt up or this morning is going to go awful."  Then I got a text from my dear friend down the street.  It said, "Your mocha is waiting for you on the porch….HAPPY MONDAY!"  I was so happy and felt very loved.  This morning my sister dropped in with a mocha for me and made my morning.  (I think people might secretly be a little worried about me and how I am handling going back to work on Friday.)  Whatever the case, thank you for the love.

Have a great week.
Love, Gina

P.S. To the Newton family, I don't have your info to thank you for the thoughtful coffee gift card that you left me at work.  So, so sweet….As you can see from the above post, I loved it!

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Family Circus Weekend!

A little over a week ago my brother, sister, their families and my parents all took our annual trip to a large cabin that we rent.  We had so much fun, both and the adults and kids enjoy themselves so much.  My camera went dead and this mother of 4 forgot her charger….boo.  So here are a few of the photos I took from the weekend.  We colored Easter eggs, played games, had dance parties, enjoyed meals together, played cards and loved the nieces and nephews.  It it such a great time for all of us to get away, laugh a lot, play, make fun of each other's parenting skills and kids and to just relax.  This was one of our best years I think and we look forward to next year.  

Hopefully I will have more photos to share soon!.
Love, Gina

Thank you Mom and Dad for a great weekend!

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Life with 4 children and other crazy ideas I have had.

I have stepped a way from the blog a few days to eat bon bons and enjoy the sunshine.  Ha.  But actually we did go away to a large cabin with our family, my parents and siblings and their small children.  I brought my camera half charged and didn't bring the charger so I have photos on my camera and haven't had a minute for the charger and the camera to be reunited so I can download the photos I took.   The last few days I took pictures on my sister in laws camera and she also has 4 children, one which is a baby so I will probably see those photos in 5 years or so... long story long, I will post those photos later.  For now I will rant about our day to day and the funny or rude things my children say.   We had a great time together and laughed a lot.

The week has been busy and is flying by.  At the beginning of the week I was helping Syd with homework and she was whining about doing homework and she said to me, "You are so lucky you are on maternity leave and don't have to do anything!"
Yes my child, you are right....I have done nothing since December 28th......In the world of a 10 year old, I am doing nothing.  But lets focus on what I have done and the frogs I have swallowed in the last week.  (Things I have been putting off for a long time.)

I kept this little girl happy and fed.  One day she was crying and I said to Gabby, "I wish she would stop crying."  Gabby responded in all seriousness, "If you wish upon a star, your dreams will come true."  Very cute.  Too bad it was daytime and there weren't any stars out!

I tried to keep all of these girls all happy and fed.
This guy is pretty good about keeping himself happy and fed.

Accomplishment #1 I took the van in to get the mud flap fixed that has been loose since probably Cece's 2nd week of life! Oh yes, did I tell you we bought a van???? Our beautiful van came to live with us when I was still in the hospital with Cece and we have been loving her to pieces.  I know those of you who are smug about refusing to drive a van think I am crazy but people work with me, we have 4 children, we need a van!!!!  Be as smug as you want, it has been so awesome, it may not be cool but it makes life with 4 children so much easier.  Try it, you will agree.  If you want to use the SUV argument, try it, we have a 7 passenger SUV too and I am here to tell you, our van is so much easier hands down.  There you have it, we avoided the van, now we have it and I love it.
Accomplishment #2 this week: returned to the social security office!!!!!!  A mere 2 weeks later I forced myself back there and got the job done, this time Gabby also came along so apparently I didn't learn my lesson!  We bolted out of the house as soon as Cece finished eating despite my appearance and lack of getting ready.  (Reminder: she eats every 2-3 hours.)  We started out going through the metal detector and I for some reason set it off repeatedly so I needed a thorough pat down.  He asked me to lift my pant legs up high, this revealed my white athletic socks with my dark danskos, and my hairy legs, very hot.  Then he asked me to unzip my coat, this revealed my nursing tank and sweatshirt that I had slept in.  Thank goodness he let me keep my hat on so I didn't have to reveal my hair that I can't remember when I washed last.  He then asked me if I had a belt on.  (Hello, I have a 2 month old, no need for a belt here, my pants stay up just fine!)  Apparently I looked like your typical suicide bomber with my 5 year old and 2 month old in tow.  After a brief 50 minute wait, we were called to the window.  I gave the lady Cece's documents and she wasn't sure if I had everything she needed.  I then warned her if I didn't I would probably cry.  She didn't bat an eye and replied, "Okay."  (Seriously, is there a more dull job than hers?!)  Then she finished up the paperwork and we were all set!  Social security card with the correct spelling is on its way!

Accomplishment #3 this week: I started Cece's memory calendar!  Pretty good before her 1st birthday wouldn't you say?
Okay, when I list these things it doesn't sound like much but I tackled some things I have been avoiding this week so I am proud.  Now I better get back to doing nothing because I am on maternity leave.

Have a good night.

Love, Gina

Friday, March 07, 2014

Happy Friday!

Because sometimes you just need a little cuteness in your Friday.  We love her so much.
Have a great weekend.